Just complaining
Work has been increasingly upsetting.
Lack of communication from some, lack of effort from some and lack of competency from some.
Some are the same people.
Today ended in an upsetting way.
So there is this project. Everyone started the same place. I did my homework. I studied. I learned. Most others didn't. I was nice enough to summarize everything and train others. Today this one guy I trained messaged me and said the manager has appointed him to train me.
Do I have any question?!?!?
Yes, actually, when you were presenting your little progress to the manager, did you mention that I literally taught you everything that you know because you didn't put in effort or was just too stupid to understand what was going on.
And yeah, when you took all my notes and shared it as your own, did you actually understand what was on the notes? Or was it just copy and paste?
I think I thought this would not happen at a work setting, where we are cross region team and there's no point of back stabbing or corporate competitiveness. I was so wrong.
Such highschool drama makes me hate work.
Gotta work hard to not work hard.
US presidential debate
I think anyone that was paying attention had witness the most cringe and depressing presidential debate ever.
Whether an American or not, knowing one of those two will hold the office that has great impact to the world, including controlling nuclear weapons, was extremely depressing.
At that moment, my thought was, is there any point to saving and planning for the future?
I personally feel like I should shift even more focus and resources to enjoying the “now”.
Workdays
I am kind of feeling why we have five-day workdays a week.
I often work weekend shifts that connect the work days to 10-12 days. And I was really feeling it this past week.
On the 7th day, I started having headaches. On the 8th day, I was simply burnt out. My efficiency has gone down so much that I am not quite sure what I have done from 8th to 10th day this time.
The 4-day weekend that follows is nice though.
However, it seems I’d need more than a week of vacation at a time to completely get away from work.
Not the easiest thing.
Corporate life… I know I need to make adjustments to get used to this healthily.
I wonder what I can do.
Just water
I think I am like water.
What I am hardly changes, but I change forms to adapt to whatever shapes are around me.
I may be colored.
I may have my temperature changes.
I may lose some of me as I go.
But at the end of the day, I am still just water.
I want to find the best temperature for me.
But that really isn’t up to me, is it?